kuch kuch hua tha ....

My friends often ask me, that I have written almost everything in my blogpost, then how come I never mentioned about the craziest thing I have ever done in the college!!!!
And I always answer it with a smile :)

In everyone’s life, a moment comes, when he can’t think of anyone but his/her crush. This truth is quite known to most of us. And then, you don’t think what is right or what is wrong, you just follow your heart. Most of the people keep it within them and wait for it to fade away and very few express it, and I am amongst the latter.

I take you back to my first semester. It all started the time when I first saw her. It was really a crush at first sight, if not a love at first sight! She made me go wild and crazy. And the more I noticed her, the more I was out of myself.

And without writing more about how I started feeling for her (which I don’t think you will be interested in), I come directly to the part how I poured out my heart to her. Yes, it was uncontrollable, so I decided to give her a love letter.

I was awake the whole night, thinking about what to write. And with many deletions and insertions, I managed to complete the letter. I had a card too, with my picture on the cover which I decided to give her along with the letter. I wrote her name in blood and mine too. Now you may find it wierd as I also find it now. But at that time I was in some other world ! a world of love and passion, a world of eternal happiness which can't be explained in words and a world in which all these things seem normal ! (going too philosophical)

Well everything was set. I was high on emotions. I had the love letter with me.
But I always had the thinking that it’s not the right way. But as I said you don’t think what is right or what is wrong, so I decided to give it to her. I just wanted her to know that I had a crush on her and I really never expected anything in return.

The letter which contained all true feelings of mine without any mallice reached her. And it didn’t go that smoothly. What should be the matter between me and her became the matter of a bunch lot of people. I was really sad. I just wanted her to know that I like her, but…

Any ways as time passed, I moved on. But I really don’t feel that I will ever have any another crush again. And this doesn’t mean that, if I have yet another crush I won’t tell her. No way!!!! I already said that I am amongst the latter :)

sympathy

This morning when I woke up, I saw something and a poem ran across my mind.

I lay in sorrow deep distress

My grief a proud man heard

His looks were cold , he gave me gold

but not a pleasant word.

My sorrow passed and I paid him back

The gold he gave to me

Then stood erect and spoke my thanks

and blessed his charity.

I lay in sorrow deep distress

My grief a poor man heard

He wound my head , he gave me bread,

he watched me night and day.

My sorrow passed

But how shall I pay him back,

what he has done for me..

Oh! Gold is great
but greater far in heavenly sympathy!

You must be wondering why this poem ? Or infact why any poem ? Ok, I will tell you.

Last night while playing basketball, I got a cramp on my right leg, and was unable to walk. My leg got swollen up, but somehow I managed to come back to my hostel.

I was sitting in my room and without even asking for anything Uday brought me some iodex, and Ashok and Dhruv some painkillers.

And this morning or should I say afternoon (it was 12:30 P.M.) when I woke up, I saw Uday carrying some food in his hand. It was the special* lunch (served in our mess).Yes it was for me. He said, “Oye, khaa le “ .And it was this time when the poem ran through my mind....

*its basant panchami so a special lunch in our mess.

not just another thought

There may be days when you get up in the
morning and things
aren't the way you had hoped they would be.

That’s when you have to tell yourself
that things will get better.

There are times when people disappoint
you and let you down.
But those are the times when you must remind yourself

to trust your own judgments and opinions,
to keep your life focused on believing in yourself.

There will be challenges to face and changes to make in your life,
and it is up to you to accept them.

Constantly keep yourself headed in the right direction for you.

It may not be easy at times, but in those times of struggle

you will find a stronger sense of who you are.

So when the days come that are filled with frustration

and unexpected responsibilities, remember to believe in yourself

and all you want your life to be.

Because the challenges and changes will only help you to find the goals
that you know are meant to come true for you.

Keep Believing in Yourself

I simply love this thought. Its really meaningful.

ABHIGYAN

Her

name is Mamta. She is studying in some school though she doesn’t know the name of the school and even the grade in which she is studying! But she is sweet, she is smart, she is disciplined and most importantly she is interested in learning.

My

job is to train her or basically make her up to the level so that she gets an admission in 1st grade. I won't call it a job; I would rather call it my duty. I joined ABHIGYAN, because I feel that it’s my duty to do something for others (but again the main reason I am doing this is to gain happiness ..(referring to my earlier post on happiness)). And what can be better than teaching a young girl, who came from a poor family, so that she gets an admission in a good school.

Today

was my first day, and no special bond developed between 'the teacher' and 'the student', but I hope and I wish that I become the best tutor she ever had or will have !

Oh!

I forgot one important thing; for some reasons, from next class onwards, I will be teaching Monica (elder sister on Mamta). So whatever little bonding which was developed , will be gone soon. But I will always remember her for 2 reasons (which is quite obvious).

Will

tell you about Monica in my next post.

Next class is on SATURDAY - 3:00 to 4:00 P.M.

uh..new sem .. is it?

Well, if you simply think, yes it is a new semester. But have you ever wondered, why do we call a semester - a new semester ? I mean, what’s new in it? (we again have to study after all ! ) . Of course the subjects are different, we work under different professors, but aren't we experiencing this change every time we get into a so called “new semester”? then what’s new in it?

What actually makes us feel that it’s a new semester is our own feeling. The way we feel at the beginning of each semester, the new enthusiasm, the new motivation, the hope to do better, and the freshness we have!

I bet, every time you go home after a sem ends you make plans for the coming sem. Take for example my friend Uday. He had planned (at the end of 2nd sem) three things he will definitely do the next sem (3rd sem).

1. A beautiful morning jog (daily)
2. Evening - GYM
3. And the most important - to attend all the classes and lectures (which is quite common)

And do you think he did it? Oh! You very well know the answer....no, not even for a single day !
And it’s not the case only with him, it’s very natural, and all of us are a part of this. We all plan certain things for a new semester, but all of us fail, may be in the very beginning or for some, after a little while! but we all do. (and I am not talking about exceptional here).

Coming back to the point about the new feeling, I already expressed that getting new books, new lecturers doesn’t make a sem a new sem, unless and until you feel it from within !

And from the past experiences its quite clear, that planning back home about the new sem, is useless and such a waste of time! So this time, I haven’t. And with it, there is no way that I feel like, I am doing a new semester. It’s the same old crap engineering I am doing.

Any ways....lets welcome this brand new fourth semester :)