Missing Something

I am comfortable here. The room is big enough for a single person, and it has everything a bedroom and study room should have. Moreover there is a huge window, providing a nice view of the city and also letting the fresh air and sun come directly in.

Sometimes I use the study table, and sometimes I study on bed. Sometimes I look out through the window and sometimes I just stand in front of the mirror. Something is missing, I know something is definitely missing.....

I am missing my friend's room

I am missing the rooms where I can just walk in

and sit or lie down, as if it is mine!

I am missing the room no 261,

where I can knock and shout 'flying robot, flying robot'.

I am missing the room no 257,

where I can bang open the door, utter few slangs, and ask for a fag,

only to hear an immediate refusal.

I am missing the room no 248 and 239,

which is always locked, either from inside or outside.

I am missing the room no 222,

where I can hear the sound of FRIENDS soap everytime I pass by.

I am missing the room no 223,

where I can go, tease, and then ask doubts.

I am missing the room no 224,225,228 ,

where I can go and plan a 'daru party'.

I am missing room no 229,

on whose door I can kick as hard as I could,

only to hear the angry shout of the friend inside,

or to see his angry face turning into a smiling one.

I am missing room no 339,

where I get new things to eat,

where I can knock before going to any class,

where I can complete all my reports,

and where I can gossip even during exams.

I am missing the room no 342,

where I can peek in , to see what's he doing.

And what I am missing most is the room no 205,

where I can talk hours on phone,

where I can lie down and listen to a song,

where I can fag watching a movie,

where I can connect to myself,

and where I have spent the last 3 years of my life !

Feelings

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I quit

Its natural that certain phase comes in your life time to time, it affects you, it changes you and it changes the things around you.

I started smoking last semester. There was no particular reason. I tried it, and I liked it, and so I continued it. It felt so good, so calm and relaxing. It was very rare last sem, but this semester, I fagged almost daily! (with only one, 20 days gap; it has another story) . And mind you, this semester is still not over yet.

I said , this semester is still not over yet, because from now on, I quit. Last night, I fagged my last three cigarettes.

During this phase, there were certain misunderstandings, things around me changed a bit, but it never affected me till yesterday!. Whatever happened , it shouldn't bother you, the important thing is that I quit. And when I say I quit, it means I quit.

This phase ends. It was a short one, it was very different, I wont say it was a bad one, because it brought me closer to someone :)

that one moment in life

7th Oct , 8:00 AM . I just got up from bed, and haven't even brushed my teeth yet. I am so happy. This is the day I have been waiting for so long.

The day which I will never forget, not even after I die. This evening is going to be so memorable, fun, and romantic.

It will be perfect.

I have read somewhere, that there is always a moment in ones life, which he never forgets, and even when he turns old, looses all his respect, pride and money, he still smiles recollecting the moment.

For me these four days is going to become the moment which will make my life complete, give me eternal happiness and always keep me smiling.

Use Contacts : If u believe me !

Most of the people don't use contact lenses because they think that they have to remove it every night, put it in the solution and then wear it back the next morning ! And following this daily, is a pain. Better use specs!

Well, what I feel is that, the above "fact" is a myth! (I said I feel, and remember, I am not an eye specialist.) I still don't know, why do they instruct so ! Initially , I too used to follow this old routine of taking it out before sleeping. And ya it was boring and irritating to follow this every night!

But, once I was reading the instructions on the lens solution. It says -

Wash your lenses with the solution. Take care not to ... blah blah blah........and more blah blah.. (all these instructions , so that you finish your bottle soon, and by a new one!) and then soak it for around 4 hrs. Keep it covered.

And then you can wear it for a maximum of 31 days.

It was cool. I tried it. And today its my 25th consecutive day, and I haven't removed my lenses. And it makes no difference. Neither it sticks, nor blur. Neither it hurts, nor itches !!
And guys its so better than specs (specially for those using high power specs).

But ya, for some 'youngsters', wearing specs is a 'fashion' ;) Isn't it ?

Another End (little sad)

I can see a little hope that my CGPA will be above 7 soon. So its fine and I am happy, though I have some mixed feelings at present.

Two years have passed and I have made some of my best friends here. I can't imagine myself studying here without them. We all used to hang out together, play together, laugh together, talk together, gossip together and live together!

Of course this is not the case now, time changes and so does the things around. Priorities change, thinkings change. But life has to go.

And we are still in same college, I wonder what would happen when we pass out !! :(

A : " Kitni khoobsurat jagah hai !! "

B : " Hmnnnn....Its beautiful !"

A: " You know what, humein har saal, kam se kam, ek hafte ke liye Goa aana chahiye. "

B: "Defienetly yaar. Kiyon C ? "

Pause

B : " Kya soch raha hai yaar ? "

C : " Dekh raha hun wo jahaz , jo zara der baat dikhayee nahi dega. Jaante ho , hum teeno us jahaz ki tarah hai, jo aaj nahi to kal apni manzilon ko dhoondte hue nikalenge, aur ho sakta hai ki hamari manzilen alaga alag ho !

B: " Tu ye sab kiyon keh raha hai meri samajh mein nahi aa raha hai !! hum sab dost hai C .....Zindgai bhar ke liye !

C: "Ofcourse hain, lekin kiski zindagi kise kahan le jaati hai kya pata ! Kabhi socha hai...shayad har saal yahan aana to ek taraf, 10 saal mein ek baar bhi milna mushkil hoga

A : " Aisa kuch nahi hoga C, hum dost the, hain, rahenge , hamesha "

Love You !

me n mah coffee

Dark Days ahead And I will be high on coffee

I started drinking black coffee when I was in 9th grade. (Got this 'inspiration' from my brother)

Earlier I used to drink it because my Brother did, and also to keep my eyes open while studying !

It tasted too bad in the begining , but after few months, I developed little taste for it. And slowly and slowly I sarted liking it ! Its so pure, just water and coffee, no sugar , no milk !

And now, I like it even more than normal coffee/tea, and I consume to0 much of it; mostly during exams. I simply love taking the sip again and again form my mug. Can't read a book, without having my coffee beside me. Almost addicted :)

Pappu and Panda do join me sometimes :)

a mug of hot water + one tablespoon of Nescafe matinal = my life saving drug

jai ma durga

I have started worshiping again, and it feels really good. I don't know why had I stopped it soon after I joined this college ! It takes just two minutes to recite the mantras which my dad taught me back home.

And that two minutes make my day, fill me with confidence, and make my life happy. What do we say ? Ya , "Khushiyan kut kut ke bhar deti hai! "
I have the feeling that She (Ma Durga) is with me all the time, so what else do it need !

I know you won't believe this, but you can't stop me from expressing myself :)

feelings

I keep thinking about her all the time. Sometimes I love her, sometimes I hate her, but I can’t stop thinking about her. She never leaves me; she has made a permanent place in my mind (if not in my heart).

I don’t know whether its love! Because I have heard, that ‘In love everything seems new, fresh, happy and exciting. You even enjoy the most give up movie and the ugliest face brings a smile on your face.’

But this is not with me, nothing seems right, I am not happy as I used to be, and every single day is painful. I am trying for a long time now, to get out of it, but in vain. She simply rules my mind!

Should I tell her all this? But again what should I say? I myself don’t know what’s this all’ bout! , but then there is something which makes me think of her all the time.

Don’t ask who’s she?! Please!! And don’t make any assumptions, she can be anyone.
But I have to admit she is gorgeous, sexy, intelligent, and attractive.

And may be, not sure, but I wish that someday we date and finally fall for each other.

Oh, I forgot to mention about my birthday! (See…she is still dominating my thoughts). It was nasty and dirty this time. Got some real birthday bumps, eggs on my head, alternate buckets of hot and cold water and chocolate powder all over my face, ears too!!

The cake was too yummy, and the magic candles of course, how can I forget that!

Thank You ‘Dear Friends’, U R D BEST !!